Same old love

It has been bloody 3 years... lol
Since someone said I shouldn't get emotional on insta story, so might as well spill out stuff here. Maybe because I find peace in writing. HAHA

So it has been 3 years, and life still gives me lemons instead of apples.
I lost my first love in March 2017.

Do you believe in "first love never dies"?
I never thought that you can still love someone even after a year of no sight, words and touch. In fact love harder. But when he was gone, the love has increased day by day without you realised it. Well, "absence makes the heart grows fonder" right?

Do you know what is the hardest thing about farewell?
It is when there is no goodbye. The next thing you know is he is far away, unreachable. And there is NOTHING you can do without it.

Why do you still continue living?
Well for HIM, and for him.
As much as I wanted to stop doing what I'm doing now because I hate it, I do it for him because he likes it.

Is it gonna work?
I DON'T KNOW. Even after a year, I still don't. But all I want in this life, the reason why I didn't go for zinc phosphide lol is because I want to make him happy. My happiness? Was gone with him.

Nothing changes, except one.
The way you say "I love you".





My first love.
#mencintaimumrphotographer lol

Question of the day:
Why it is so hard to do something for your father while he has done MORE than everything for you?