Key of letting go

Hi there!
Anything to let go here? I mean forever? Haha ikr it damn hard.
Once you had someone precious, incessantly you care, apple of your eyes, will you ever think of letting go? No. No. No and never. But things don't really turn up the way you hope it will.
You know what.. There's key to letting go..

1. Find reasons why you should more than you should keep it
2. Keep asking yourself is this person still worthy?
3. Compare the person now and then
4. How to survive after letting go
5. Never turn back after letting go
6. Move on and be happy
7. You did it!

Some people are worth to come and go. They are fated not to stay.
Always bear in mind, when someone goes, there is someone better to come.
So keep calm and stay cool! Yeah.. you sure have to fight for someone but if your battle ain't meant to be.. you just have to accept it and find someone new. New broom sweeps clean huh?

Note that your family isn't the one you can easily let go. Never I guess. So be happy at least there's someone whom you will never let go.

If I let you go, I will never know, what my life will be, holding you close to me..
will I ever see, you smiling back at me, how will I know, if I let you go...

Letting go of fear of letting go 

Do not ever let go those who make you smile. Smile. :)

Lost & Found

Hi there! Have you ever lost somewhere with the people that found the best in you and on the same time you found your lost self?
I do.

When we lost in Georgetown looking dearly for Street Art walls for hours, nobody panicked. Seriously nobody. We enjoyed crumpling the map and busy typing the google map while laughing. "Masuk sini. Instinct aku ckp sini" Some were right but most were wrong. Haha but who cares? We waited patiently for everyone to have a snap of pictures at each wall. Never let anyone lost from sight and happily walked as a clan.

The best part is when you lost contact with the people from your primary school and you found that they never changed and yet even becoming better cliques. Bike racing like 5 years old kids was way thrilling than watching movie or playing bowling. Sometimes, doing free random things means a lot more than going shopping.

It's true about the fact that you know a person better when you go travelling with him or her. And it's always happier to find back someone you nearly lost. People who don't judge you because of your past and accept your dark side just because they have found the best in you before. Embrace each other flaws because being flawless is too mainstream. Haha It's the mistakes that make your life interesting and it's the flaws that make you special and unique.

Not everyone will. 

Good friends are like stars, you don't always see them but you know they are always there. 

Perks of being nitwit (less smart)

Hi there! Have you ever get tired of being smart? Do you have thorns piercing you when you score excellent grades? (me raise hand)

Sad to say I have been literally smart and nitwit or rudely, idiot. But happiest days of my life are those during me being a nitwit. This quote ftw during my final high school year graduation ; "I may not be good at academics but God knows what I'm good at" Deeply startled and kept me stupefied. He might be below par academically but he is amazing in computering. Gaming too of course. The end of the day, success doesn't count A's in your certificates.

We often link smart = good grades = straight A's = 4 flat = dean list
Gosh. What happen to those who can own a level 10 or higher town hall in coc?! Lol kidding. What about the ones who set up programming for robotics competition? Handling a grand event with VIPs, preparing paper work for community service in Cambodia and gathering a whole sum of donation to orphanage are not an ABC stuff. And sometimes these need soft skills instead of encyclopedia brain.

Back to why being nitwit feels more enjoyable than smart.. There's no one to envy and judge your intelligence. Nobody to question your marks after each released result. Nobody to say, "Dah la tu study. Kau dh pandai." Nobody to check lines by lines if you were given accident marks. Nobody to boycott you from hang out plans just because they thought you are nerds.

The feeling of victory is much overwhelmed when a smart peep being smart after being a nitwit. Got it? How you step by step become smarter.. Not only academically but in life. But accept fact that at one point you are forced to be beyond smart because the community only accepts and tolerates with geniuses. And your value are not less than a crap even if you are a kind idiot. Sorry, but truth hurts.

so...

Indulging in the perks of being nitwit won't last long. You need to be genius because hell no you wanna lose with these bragged geniuses. Einstein didn't born with Algebra in his brain. Everybody has being a nitwit and smart simultaneously. Engineers won't do good in medical right? Happy genius-ing! :D

Eldest VS Youngest

Hi there!

Anyone here is the eldest or youngest among siblings?
Face that I'm both. (Oh please my dad doesn't polygamy-ing) It's just the uniqueness in my family. I am the youngest to my far-gap siblings but the eldest to my close-gap nieces and nephews.

Maybe this may sound stereotypes but fear not it's natural to behave the way it usually is.
The eldest mostly responsible, serius, ambitious, caring, solitude, persistent, independent, bossy and protective. Like over protective. Haha The ones who lead the siblings and boss around sometimes. They hate to admit the fact that they are actually also manja with their parents because firstborn child always in special care. Even though they are "I am the right one here" but they like to give in to their younger siblings. Having a sense of responsibility to take care of parents when they're old, they tend to be very ambitious and independent in life.

The youngest always to be found manja, happy-go-lucky, autonomous, rebellious, friendly, easy going, calm, clingy and sweet. Very easy to accept punishment and nags from mom but trying to escape chores on the same time. Haha Always want everyone to stick together and entertain their jokes and pointless dramas. Oh ya such a dramaking too. Haha Persistently trying to follow the older siblings footsteps and avoid being overshadowed by them. The ones who spend most of time and share secrets with mom which might differ with the eldest.

No matter how opposite the views, the eldest and youngest need each other. Both share their own perspectives to give the best of life. Be happy to be whatever child you are including middle of course because God already set the best of you. Learn to tolerate with their natural miscellaneous by having friends of various position. Enjoy the bro-sis fight sometimes! ;)

Guys ; Amazing or Annoying?

Hi there! Have you been amazed or annoyed by this clan? Haha
I believe annoyance suits better. Lol

For the whole 16 years, I never admit that guys are better academically. Like no way bro! My grades are much better. *flip hair* haha But that persistent perspective of mine crashed during my form 4 time. Only God knows how genius they are. Guys are amazingly genius. (I can't believe I am saying this tho haha) This is so obvious in Physics. My guy classmate can easily explain about the swg wire thing and how it affects the electricity by using analogy. (It's swg or something to do with wire) okay, I am amazed.

"Kau nak tau kenapa aku tak score? Bukan sbb aku taktau tapi aku malas nak hafal terms." Deep. Girls mostly master of memorising. In college, my genius guy member simply answered ALL of my questions about Physics again haha while he was playing games. That was incredibly amazing! Those who pop out inquiries to the lecturers asking why and how, things that we, girls wouldn't even care to think and yeah just accept the fact.

But their amazing character is balanced with their insufferable annoyance. "Weh kenapa jawapan dy A?" ; "Sebab tak B.." How annoying is that??!  "Guys, has anyone check the application dateline? When ah?" ... awkward silence.. after couple of repeating.. " what if you check and tell us. Weh, sheesh somebody just attack me on coc!!" ANNOYING!!! HAHA

Having a bro who always pull your braid off, asking you to pass the an inch distance away tv remote control and control the PS3 has made me totally tolerable to their annoying habits. And a gamer guy wouldn't respond to a text or ws while drooling in fifa. Hopeless, girls. But merely do we feel lonely if these annoying guys aren't in the class? The ones who apparently cheer up the tense class with their cracking hambar jokes. Haha

My bro-member-good-friendships are somewhat that brighten up my dull days. They are more that what a "boyfriend" might give. After all you don't need being in a relationship yet while still sticking as mummy's and daddy's lil girl. Catch your dreams first so you can catch the right guy and honeymoon forever. Get to know a lot of these annoying peeps because they are naturally amazing! You can really learn a lot of life lessons from them. "Act like a lady ; Think like a man." Familiar huh?

Wait. Here's the secret to endure them. Never trust guys 100% including your brothers. Seriously said. Haha and you're ready to join their clan. ;)

Of IELTS, MUET & TOEFL

Hi there! Anybody here is taking those 3 exams? Or already taken it?

Just wanna share some tips. I already taken IELTS last year and praise to HIM, I managed to get more than the average band that I should. So here are some tips. Oh before that, these 3 exams are quite similar in components so I guess this post may benefit the other 2 exams candidates.

So, I will start with Speaking Test. Obviously you need to practise speaking in class and among your friends to avoid nervous and awkwardness. There are 3 parts and each of the part has different style of speaking. For 1st part, kinda ice breaking, you will talk about your life which is something that is naturally from you. For 2nd part, you will be given a cue card and you have to talk about all the points asked by the card. Mostly you will use your experiences to score this part. Failure of answering all points will lead to a penalise of marks. For 3rd part which are the crucial and general knowledge questions, you shouldn't give your experiences in this part because it's general. Answer it based on your view and current issues after confirming what's exactly the questions want.

You should really stay calm and be able to "belasah" this test confidently. Super confidently . You may ask nicely if you couldn't grasp the first time what the examiner is saying. And for IELTS, you may ask properly if you need a bit of further explanation on the questions and if you need a short time to think. Just say, let me think for a while. Then proceed.

Moving on to Writing Test. Writing has 2 parts. 1st part is more to format and techniques. Make sure you already endeavour all the types of diagrams that could be asked. For 2nd part, there is still a format but it is more to creative thinking and style of writing. Time management is very crucial here. Spend only 15 minutes and below for part 1 and 40 minutes and below for part 2 in order to have a 5 minutes checking time. For MUET, there are half an hour extra, lucky you, so you should manage it well.

Let's proceed to Reading Test which is super tricky. As for me I prefer to read the questions first before the articles. But this means practices really play a part. Don't be confused and answer it within the time frame. Quickly but carefully.

Finally, the last part is Listening Test. Be very cautious and meticulous okay. Don't miss any words they say and you may jot down things that may help. For me, I used to read every question first before the audio starts instead of writing back the answer of each segment at the answer sheet. You will have enough time to write at the end. But again this also needs practices to ensure how you can manage the time well.

Practice makes perfect. So do a lot of practices for all components, start speaking English more oftenly and enjoy the exam! Any specific question regarding this may be asked personally to me. To a great band! :D

The legend ball

Hi there? Enough emo about last post k? Haha
Anybody here's a legend at school before? Anybody has some remarkable things that you called as legend?

As a football fanatic, a ball means everything to the eleven or five players in the match. (Football and futsal) How this one ball builds each of the player a position. And if a defender plays a striker rule in football, things get mess up. Haha Anybody here would not miss a chance to play football or futsal each leisure time or in fact every evening?

If you are living in a multiracial neighbourhood, playing this one ball with the rest of the neighbours is already a simplified version of unity. All eleven individuals can share one ball in 90 minutes to be exact. Isn't that interesting?

Oh yes including the other sports involving ball too. Haha and most importantly all eleven rangers cooperate and only teamwork causes the victory. Look at the Germans, they played as one team as they don't really have a world renowned professional but they won the World Cup in 2014.

So here's the legend of a ball. You make it a legend. And your life could be a legend too. :)

A happy struggle

Struggles. Hi there! Are you struggling to read this blog? Hee
I hate struggling. But I always do.

Do you know how hard is alevels? Super hard. And obviously you need super struggles.
The most struggling time I had was in my alevels time.
Being the average student forced me doing this sickening thing.

How do I struggle?
♢I had lectures from 8am to 4pm. A break at 12pm to 2pm was just enough for a nap, lunch and prayer. I've been taking notes and doing tutorials throughout the classes.
♢I stayback at class or library from 4pm till 6pm++.
♢I studied in the bus.
♢I continued my revision from 8.30pm till 11.30pm at study hall.
♢I had my night cycling from 11.30pm till 12am around the hostel.
♢I proceed studying from 12.30am till 2am usually or till my body and mind can endure. Or I immediately slept after cycling and woke up at 4am to study back.

That was weekdays. Weekends? I spent from 9am till 11.30pm at study hall. Sigh.
Worst of it, for my final sem I declared war to movies and football matches. Tough. Very tough.

And the routine went on and on. It was a sufferable timetable. But I never have any other option. And to add the sufferings, the results had never been as great as the struggling seemed. But thanks to that, I keep on going and fighting and struggling.

I will go from classmates to seniors and juniors to ws lecturers to meeting lecturers to settle my revision. Exhausted? Hell yes. But do I have a choice?

Once I set myself in alevels and uk, I am willing to face all these struggling. But I'm happy torturing myself tho. Hahaha may all this hardwork pays off. Do pray I pass my cut off points and fly to uk. Hehe may God bless all of you. But one thing for sure, I will not regret all these hardships even if things don't go the way it should. I am always trying to be sincere and happy to struggle as I believe, "success is about 99% hardwork and 1% genius"

Keep calm and carry on. You will never walk alone. :)

Life sucks

Hi there!
Life is sucks, isn't it? Been changing high schools like spoilt brat told me that. Been pranked, boycotted, misjudged, mocked and backstabbed weren't easy. Were there for you? But that what build the new me.

This sodium girl was a shy, loner, loser, quitter and pampered. So manja to handle. Haha
But here now she has trying to be a dominant, extrovert, super friendly, dependable, caring and a persistant fighter. Oh yes fact that she is still a loner. Will tell you more in the next posts.

People may judge and indeed as long as they are people they always judge you. But fear not, those are harmless judgements. Hey, we are who we are. Cliche. Haha we are who we decide to. Who we aim to. Who are they to judge you? The prettiest girl is the one who always believe that she is pretty and of course you don't need a magic mirror to tell you that.

How you survived girl?
Just keep your head up and always believe shits happen. Keep going. :)